The time just keeps flying in our household. Personally, I can't believe that Ruby started kindergarten and that Alora will start this fall. Kyle is getting closer to finishing high school and turning 18. Brett will be 12 in just a few days and Ross is one, big, sweet, adorable toddler. Chris celebrated his one year anniversary at his new job and I started my teaching program at WGU.
2013 has for me been a difficult one. One reason why is because I have anxiety. I don't really tell people about my anxiety problem unless I really have to. I didn't develop anxiety until about 7-8 years ago due to a violent situation where I was a victim. (I will not explain the situation so don't ask!). The result has been a lingering anxiety in certain situations and some OCD that has been quite challenging. I have improved over the years but a couple of certain situations this year has left me hurt, isolated and unable to move forward. I inadvertently made some people upset because they didn't understand my anxiety and they said some unkind things. I am hoping that the new year will bring the spirit of forgiveness into my heart and allow me to start moving forward. Some days I can only function in minutes and I have to break things down into "small, attainable goals" (thank you Woodbadge). It is a conscience effort everyday to get up and do what I have to do and hopefully I will continue to therapeutically get through it.
I always enjoyed New Years Eve and for several years would have the tradition of writing in my journal about the events of the previous year and the goals for the upcoming year. I wish I could amaze you with a list of current goals for this year, but I am still just trying to keep my head about water and just getting through the days one minute at a time.
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